I Love you in all forms
In all shades of time
Night or Day, Spring or Fall
But I love you more
When you are alone and in despair
Then your heart is fully open
And you are most vulnerable
In that moment I feel closest to you
Aks
Vulnerable
03 Jan 2022 Leave a comment
in Love, Loving You Tags: Depression, Difficulties, Feelings, Love
Unforgettable encounter
30 Dec 2021 Leave a comment
in Beloved, Love, Loving You, Memories Tags: Love, Loving You, Memories
The sweetness
The softness
Like the red rose petals
Tender, gentle, velvety
The touch
Oh the fragrance
The warmth of your breath
Awakens the memory
Of you and me
Together
For eons of time
Holding hands
Travelling
Always in Love
I know your scent
I can recognize you
In every time period
No matter in what shape and size
No matter in what role
You and Me
Two beats in ONE heart
Madness
01 Nov 2021 Leave a comment
in Difficulties, Life, Pain, Sufi/Mystic
I felt secure and safe within me
Roaming room to room
I got lost
Entered so deep within
Cant find my way out
Now its just me within myself
There is no one else
Sitting next to oil lamp in my heart
I talk , I listen , I reply
aks
Desire
23 Sep 2021 1 Comment
in Life, light, Your Thoughts Tags: action, Desire, Mind
What is planning ?
It’s visualizing in mind what we want . Every action start with vision, it’s the first and most important step to action. We see it, we plan it , we act on it, and its done .
The reward is the end product .
What is desire ?
Its the colors which paints the vision . Without desire, vision is just black and white, and don’t have much impact .
Next page
03 Sep 2021 1 Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: Life
Will it be darkness filled with red eyed monsters
Will it be thunder and lightening , perhaps flash flood warning
Will it be silence filled with screaming loneliness
an old lady sitting in the corner staring outside with empty eyes, holding a picture of her family
Or may be a free fall from the top of cliff with a feeling of last breath leaving the lungs
Will it be numbness , a body, a robotic mind just going on with life
Or it be early signs of spring, tiny daffodil leaf emerging from frozen ground
Perhaps one last meeting with you before we depart
what will it be ?
Wordless
02 Sep 2021 1 Comment
in Notes From My Diary Tags: Emotions, Words
Words don’t come easy to me, I only use them as I don’t have any other way to communicate, but if I could , I would just use pictures .
I wish people can see the colors around other people, then they will know instantly how the other person is feeling. Words can’t be trusted, they are just sound one makes.
I do want to talk, about so many things, but I don’t have the words, or may be I don’t want to open the flood gate of feelings, which I know are too powerful for me to contain, if they escaped the prison of my Mind.
Sometimes its necessary to ignore the feelings, just to keep the sanity. Sometimes Its necessary to keep the life vest on, when one don’t know how to swim in deep waters.
I am curious , and I keep thinking what exist in this deep water, should I be afraid? or should I let go and let myself drown .
Feelings
05 Jul 2021 2 Comments
in Love Tags: Love, Loving You, Mad Love, Mystic, Sufi, supreme Love
Feelings of Love fell on to my heart
Like fingers on piano keys
Creating Music, songs, symphonies
Giving birth to words
Tickled by your thoughts
Words begin to giggle
Then started to dance
Holding hands with feelings
Lifting my spirit
To that faraway land
Inhabited by Love
in that other Galaxy
~ © Ak
Fog
01 Jul 2021 Leave a comment
in death, Life, Memories, Pain, Sad, Uncategorized Tags: change, death, Life, Lose, Sadness
My heart use to be a place full of sunny days, where countless fragrant colored flowers bloomed all year long , butterflies’s heaven it was. Some days were cloudy as well, but clear as crystal , I could see for miles, those lush green mountains surrounding the valley that carried the sparkling blue water in its lap. A place where I could go and stay for as long as I wanted, full of clean fresh air, filled with oxygen .
My heart is now all foggy, it has the strange smell of mystery now, I can’t see too far, at night it gets even more dark. I am sure, someone else lives there now, I can hear the sobing, but since I can’t see , I don’t know who is that. At times it pulls me in, but I try not to stay for too long. Since you have departed and left me here on earth, my heart has become a hunted place.
~ Ak
Is that you?
26 Jun 2021 1 Comment
in Sufi/Mystic Tags: Hope, Life, Love, Struggle
Reflecting on dew drops
Hidden between the rain drops
unfolding in fragrance of rose
Is that you I feel on my finger tips when I touch
the velvety softness of Petals
The colors of sunset, painting my vision
Is that you I hear
Moonlight whispering in my ears
Song of Birds
Lullaby of stream pulls me towards it self
Is that you
Or
I have gone mad
Why does this madness taste so sweet
Even when I break into million pieces
And sadness squeeze my neck
I struggle for breath
The heartache takes over
You sit with me and feel my pain
Tenderly you hold me
remind me, there is tomorrow
It will be alright, its just temporary
Nothing remains, everything changes
So will the sorrow the pain
Its Burning inside , let it burn
Burn it all, to ashes
Its all an illusion
You will remain , you are eternal
~ Ak
Waiting
24 Jun 2021 Leave a comment
in Uncategorized Tags: Lover, soulmate
I have been looking for you
Birth after Birth
Finally I have found you
I have been waiting
Anxiously , impatiently
Listen to the foot steps
She is approaching
That walk, the rhythm
Or is it my heartbeat
Pulsating in my ears
I am ready
Holding roses in my hands
Then she appears
Looks straight into my eyes
Turning me to stone
I can see her but can’t blink
I can hear her but can’t speak
I can feel her but can’t move
Her hands touching me
Every cell of my body vibrating
Chanting her name
My heart singing
Waiting patiently
for her lips to touch mine
Waiting the universe to explode again
Waiting to take birth again
Only this time we change the roles
She will wait for me
~ AK
Wild Flowers 