Winding vine
Of morning glory
Trying to grasp as it climb
Holding on to my train of thoughts
getting lost
among the neurons
Only the shadow remains
Just few seeds
to start a new
AK
Tainted Memories
21 Apr 2024 Leave a comment
in Childhood trauma, death, Emotional abuse, Life, Memories, Pain Tags: forgeting, old age, Time, Trauma
Day after day
16 Apr 2023 Leave a comment
When I was in my 20’s, I use to wonder, how my life will unfold, 10 or 20 years from now. I had no idea about the ups and downs of life that was ahead of me then. After been through so much, I still feel there is a lot ahead of me yet to come, am I ready ? I don’t know, I guess no one is , but we are resilient beings and just keep going no matter what, like breathing, day after day after day, trying to stand up every morning from that bed, taking one step after another, splash of water on the face, looking into our own eyes in the mirror, staring and thinking who are you ? and what happened to me ? did I got lost somewhere along the way ……….
Strangers in Strange land
18 Mar 2023 Leave a comment
in Life, Sufi/Mystic Tags: Spirituality
I walk and I am tired
But I keep walking and won’t stop
All these unfamiliar roads
Strangers , unknown faces
Where am I ?
I don’t belong
I am trying and I will not give up
I hope and I believe
One day I will find
The Home
The way back to You
Till then
I walk and I ll keep walking
Tea Party
29 Aug 2022 1 Comment
in growth, letting go, Life, Love, Memories Tags: Faith
Preparing for the tea party, taking out the good china, that fragrant tea I ordered last week, pouring the hot water, taking the pastries out, finger sandwiches , decorating table, placing everything exactly where it belongs.
A guest will come, that unknown stranger, I know, my 6th sense tells me so
Waiting ………
Knock on the door , silence ….
Knock again …. but I am afraid to open the door
afraid to let someone come in , what if ? ? so many questions
afraid to open the door of my heart
afraid to have it broken
I can’t ….
but I want to
clock is ticking …. I peak outside
I see someone sitting on stairs, facing the other way
finally I open the door, that person turns around with a smile , get up, steps in
Close the door behind
Capturing my heartbeat
and
I let go handing over the key
Ak
Madness
01 Nov 2021 Leave a comment
in Difficulties, Life, Pain, Sufi/Mystic
I felt secure and safe within me
Roaming room to room
I got lost
Entered so deep within
Cant find my way out
Now its just me within myself
There is no one else
Sitting next to oil lamp in my heart
I talk , I listen , I reply
aks
Desire
23 Sep 2021 1 Comment
in Life, light, Your Thoughts Tags: action, Desire, Mind
What is planning ?
It’s visualizing in mind what we want . Every action start with vision, it’s the first and most important step to action. We see it, we plan it , we act on it, and its done .
The reward is the end product .
What is desire ?
Its the colors which paints the vision . Without desire, vision is just black and white, and don’t have much impact .
Fog
01 Jul 2021 Leave a comment
in death, Life, Memories, Pain, Sad, Uncategorized Tags: change, death, Life, Lose, Sadness
My heart use to be a place full of sunny days, where countless fragrant colored flowers bloomed all year long , butterflies’s heaven it was. Some days were cloudy as well, but clear as crystal , I could see for miles, those lush green mountains surrounding the valley that carried the sparkling blue water in its lap. A place where I could go and stay for as long as I wanted, full of clean fresh air, filled with oxygen .
My heart is now all foggy, it has the strange smell of mystery now, I can’t see too far, at night it gets even more dark. I am sure, someone else lives there now, I can hear the sobing, but since I can’t see , I don’t know who is that. At times it pulls me in, but I try not to stay for too long. Since you have departed and left me here on earth, my heart has become a hunted place.
~ Ak
Every second with every breath
15 Mar 2021 Leave a comment
in Beloved, Life, Love, Loving You Tags: Life, Love, worth living
You pulsate in my mind , with every heart beat, with every breath.
Like fruit existing in every blossom , even before we can actually see it grow, you exist in my thoughts, I know you are there but no one can see you, only I can enjoy your fragrance, in my being .
You have given a new meaning to the word Love, a unique, rare and immensely pleasurable feeling, just knowing you are there thinking about me too. It’s a life worth living no matter how difficult and hard, you make it easy.
Every second with every breath, I continue to fall …. and I know you will catch me … I continue to fall in Love with you .
AK ~
Flip that coin
06 Sep 2020 1 Comment
in Beloved, Life, light, Love, Loving You, Sufi/Mystic, Uncategorized Tags: Beloved, Fragrance, Life, Love, Out of Mind, Wisdom
I can feel you but I can’t see you,….. I can sense you but can’t touch you, … your essence and your presence over takes me …, liberates me, from the shackles of this life …… You …. are everywhere.
Your face…. hidden behind all that my eyes see ,…. my thoughts, can almost touch your fragrance, but like the twinkle of stars, it disappears. the moment it appears.
I can hear you laughing in me, Smiling with me, and Hugging me gently by sending the warm wave through me .
I want to thank you.
Thank you for letting me feel this way, thank you for letting me see the angel looking back at me in the Childs eyes. for letting me have the wings, so I can be with the winds ….. and letting me hear the songs of mountains, and humming of Seas.
Thank you for letting me taste the sweetness of heaven and bitterness of hell. ….. and…. for letting me have….. the Gift of ” knowing” …. that let me see the Good and Evil, are two sides of the same coin, …. Coin that I hold…. in my hand.
aks
Your Reflection 