Time

02 Feb 2025 Leave a comment

by AKS in Abuse, Abusive relation, Emotional abuse, Energy suckers, Pain Tags: , , , ,

Usually time pass by paying no heed to anything or anyone, but that day, it stopped for a second, looked at me and started laughing pointing its finger towards me, saying, you are so stupid, don’t you know , never share your feelings with anyone, now that you have made the mistake , you will be punished .

I was sitting in my chair looking outside , trying to make sense of what was going on, suddenly, time started to wrap it self around my heart, squeezing it, I felt suffocated unable to breath, I don’t know how long it continued, I felt at mercy of time, finally time let go of my heart.

I know now, to be extra careful, no one is worthy of trust. People want what they want and once taken they move on. If you let them enter your heart, they will enter with dirty shows and then blame you of being dirty .

Ak

Use that anger inside

22 Feb 2021 1 Comment

by AKS in Abuse, Abusive relation, Childhood trauma, Difficulties, Emotional abuse, Emotional black mail, Energy suckers, Human doormat, Pain, Stuck in relationship, Taken for granted, Unable to leave the relationship Tags: , , , , ,

My hands are bleeding

The rope is cutting through my skin

I am tired and my grip is losening

I can’t let go, I won’t let go

My eyes are closing

I think I am passing out

Its dark all around

No light, no help

Yes keep climbing

I can feel the cold dampness on my skin

the stench of something rotten

perhaps someone who was holding on

has finally given up

But I am not ready

I won’t fall

I ll fight till my last breath

You can’t take it away from me

Suddenly the anger awakens

And hands start to move

One after another

Let me out of this Hell

AK~

Dark Corner

02 Oct 2019 Leave a comment

by AKS in Emotional abuse, Emotional black mail, Energy suckers, Human doormat, Life, Loving You, Memories, Note From My Diary, Recovery after divorce, Stuck in relationship, Taken for granted, Unable to leave the relationship, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts

Sometimes

I find myself

Sitting at the bottom

In that dark corner

In my Mind

Its cold

The floor is hard

Space is tight

Walls are old

Paint chipping off

Someone has scribbled underneath

But I can’t read what

I am trying

To get up

I want some light

Fresh air

A hand to hold on to

But I can’t move

Because I have no energy, no will

May be

I don’t care any more

[ AK ]