02 Oct 2019 Leave a comment
in Emotional abuse, Emotional black mail, Energy suckers, Human doormat, Life, Loving You, Memories, Note From My Diary, Recovery after divorce, Stuck in relationship, Taken for granted, Unable to leave the relationship, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts
Sometimes
I find myself
Sitting at the bottom
In that dark corner
In my Mind
Its cold
The floor is hard
Space is tight
Walls are old
Paint chipping off
Someone has scribbled underneath
But I can’t read what
I am trying
To get up
I want some light
Fresh air
A hand to hold on to
But I can’t move
Because I have no energy, no will
May be
I don’t care any more
[ AK ]
01 Oct 2019 Leave a comment
in Life, light, Love, Loving You, Memories, Note From My Diary, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts
Alone I came
Alone I lived
Alone I leave
But in between
Coming and Leaving
I have changed
When Love stamped and sealed my heart
Teaching it to beat
In the rhythm of Sun and Moon
The Universe appeared
In my Soul
Dissolving me
Into a memory
Pulsating
In the Mind of Infinity
[ AK ]
30 Sep 2019 1 Comment
in Life, Love, Loving You, Memories, Note From My Diary, Taken for granted, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts
When I am no more
I ll still be
In the warmth of Sun during the month of winter
Hugging you softly
Kissing your cheeks
And as you close your eyes
Because its too bright
You will find me sitting next to you
Holding your hand
And when you smile in that moment
Find me in the corner of your Lips
[ AK ]
29 Sep 2019 Leave a comment
in Life, Love, Loving You, Note From My Diary, Photos to inspire, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts
Me + you = Breath + heart x Life
Me – you = Breath + heart x emptiness
28 Sep 2019 Leave a comment
in Life, Love, Loving You, Memories, Note From My Diary, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts
Feels like it
It always has
Even when
You existed
In my mind’s eye
As a figure
A persona
An Impression
A fixation
Obsession
It is a confession
And then
Our roads crossed
And I saw
You
engraved in my eyes
Reflected
In my own reflection
It was
It is
It always will
Meant to be
[ AK ]
24 Nov 2018 Leave a comment
in Difficulties, Life, Sad, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts
This morning I saw a tiny little cute bird, it is known as Chickadee, came over to eat the breakfast of small seeds, and perhaps it was taking some in its beak for the partner or to save for winter, but then …..
Another Pray bird came as chickadee was leaving, knocked down the small bird, grabbed it in its claws and flew away to have the breakfast.
24 Nov 2018 Leave a comment
in Difficulties, Life, Memories, Uncategorized, Your Thoughts
Chain of events
Like dominos
Knocking down
causing ripples
awakening emotions
building actions
Leading to
The path of destiny
. [ AK ]
12 Nov 2018 Leave a comment
in Abuse, Abusive relation, Difficulties, Emotional abuse, Emotional black mail, Human doormat, Life, Sad, Stuck in relationship, Taken for granted, Unable to leave the relationship, Uncategorized
Keyboard is the doorway that let me out for fresh air. I, who like to stay within the walls of my heart along with my pain, I sometimes get suffocated when once in a while you come along and knock on my door, making me realize its been ages since I have stepped outside. But now my eyes can’t stand the light, it takes a while before I can see all my scares and some raw wounds which have already gone infected poisoning me gradually taking me towards my grave.
Its easier to stay within the walls of my heart, where I can’t see what is happening to me, pain has taught me to become numb. That is why, you think I can’t feel anymore, and I am distant. Maybe I can’t let the door open, Maybe I am afraid to let you see me, or Maybe I am afraid to see my own myself , Maybe I will lose the strength to go on, and courage will be snatched away from me , You see pain is a ferocious beast with long sharp teeth and big claws, as long as I stay hidden and numb, I can still survive.
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