Drop of water

04 May 2025 Leave a comment

by AKS in Ego, growth, inspiration, Life, Memories, Wisdom, Your Thoughts Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

A drop of water from the well of my being …..

  From the well of being, bucket of water was filled, and pulled up into my conscious mind. I sat there looking at the surface, ripples appearing and disappearing at periphery making many images on the surface of my mind.

I saw many faces so familiar to me, as if they are living and breathing inside me. 

I am not sure if they were me or not, but i can hear them talking to me. 

each has a story to tell, and I am part of their story. and they are all part of my story. 

some times our eyes meet and we just stare at each other, not knowing what to say or how to say, but eyes can read the silence and so can heart . So I am hoping you are able to read me, even though i don’t say much .

AK

Time

02 Feb 2025 Leave a comment

by AKS in Abuse, Abusive relation, Emotional abuse, Energy suckers, Pain Tags: , , , ,

Usually time pass by paying no heed to anything or anyone, but that day, it stopped for a second, looked at me and started laughing pointing its finger towards me, saying, you are so stupid, don’t you know , never share your feelings with anyone, now that you have made the mistake , you will be punished .

I was sitting in my chair looking outside , trying to make sense of what was going on, suddenly, time started to wrap it self around my heart, squeezing it, I felt suffocated unable to breath, I don’t know how long it continued, I felt at mercy of time, finally time let go of my heart.

I know now, to be extra careful, no one is worthy of trust. People want what they want and once taken they move on. If you let them enter your heart, they will enter with dirty shows and then blame you of being dirty .

Ak

Hidden

16 Dec 2023 Leave a comment

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Inversely Compatible

03 Dec 2023 1 Comment

by AKS in Your Thoughts Tags: , , , , , , , , ,

Have you ever seen a tear smiling ?

or a smile with tears in its eyes ?

Have you ever seen a Joy with ache in its heart

Or heart filled with Joy

Have you ever seen pain in ecstatic dance

Or ecstasy rising from the pits of despair ?

meaningless words

or silence full of messages

life wasted

or life lived in a single moment

?

Asma Kareem

Day after day

16 Apr 2023 Leave a comment

by AKS in Life Tags:

When I was in my 20’s, I use to wonder, how my life will unfold, 10 or 20 years from now. I had no idea about the ups and downs of life that was ahead of me then. After been through so much, I still feel there is a lot ahead of me yet to come, am I ready ? I don’t know, I guess no one is , but we are resilient beings and just keep going no matter what, like breathing, day after day after day, trying to stand up every morning from that bed, taking one step after another, splash of water on the face, looking into our own eyes in the mirror, staring and thinking who are you ? and what happened to me ? did I got lost somewhere along the way ……….

Next page

03 Sep 2021 1 Comment

by AKS in Uncategorized Tags:

Will it be darkness filled with red eyed monsters

Will it be thunder and lightening , perhaps flash flood warning

Will it be silence filled with screaming loneliness

an old lady sitting in the corner staring outside with empty eyes, holding a picture of her family

Or may be a free fall from the top of cliff with a feeling of last breath leaving the lungs

Will it be numbness , a body, a robotic mind just going on with life

Or it be early signs of spring, tiny daffodil leaf emerging from frozen ground

Perhaps one last meeting with you before we depart

what will it be ?

Fog

01 Jul 2021 Leave a comment

by AKS in death, Life, Memories, Pain, Sad, Uncategorized Tags: , , , ,

My heart use to be a place full of sunny days, where countless fragrant colored flowers bloomed all year long , butterflies’s heaven it was. Some days were cloudy as well, but clear as crystal , I could see for miles, those lush green mountains surrounding the valley that carried the sparkling blue water in its lap. A place where I could go and stay for as long as I wanted, full of clean fresh air, filled with oxygen .

My heart is now all foggy, it has the strange smell of mystery now, I can’t see too far, at night it gets even more dark. I am sure, someone else lives there now, I can hear the sobing, but since I can’t see , I don’t know who is that. At times it pulls me in, but I try not to stay for too long. Since you have departed and left me here on earth, my heart has become a hunted place.

~ Ak

Ghost trough trees in mysterious forest with fog on Halloween

Is that you?

26 Jun 2021 1 Comment

by AKS in Sufi/Mystic Tags: , , ,

Reflecting on dew drops

Hidden between the rain drops

unfolding in fragrance of rose

Is that you I feel on my finger tips when I touch

the velvety softness of Petals

The colors of sunset, painting my vision

Is that you I hear

Moonlight whispering in my ears

Song of Birds

Lullaby of stream pulls me towards it self

Is that you

Or

I have gone mad

Why does this madness taste so sweet

Even when I break into million pieces

And sadness squeeze my neck

I struggle for breath

The heartache takes over

You sit with me and feel my pain

Tenderly you hold me

remind me, there is tomorrow

It will be alright, its just temporary

Nothing remains, everything changes

So will the sorrow the pain

Its Burning inside , let it burn

Burn it all, to ashes

Its all an illusion

You will remain , you are eternal

~ Ak

Every second with every breath

15 Mar 2021 Leave a comment

by AKS in Beloved, Life, Love, Loving You Tags: , ,

You pulsate in my mind , with every heart beat, with every breath.

Like fruit existing in every blossom , even before we can actually see it grow, you exist in my thoughts, I know you are there but no one can see you, only I can enjoy your fragrance, in my being .

You have given a new meaning to the word Love, a unique, rare and immensely pleasurable feeling, just knowing you are there thinking about me too. It’s a life worth living no matter how difficult and hard, you make it easy.

Every second with every breath, I continue to fall …. and I know you will catch me … I continue to fall in Love with you .

AK ~

Loving the Lover

10 Sep 2020 1 Comment

by AKS in Uncategorized Tags: , , , , , , ,

 
As the distance shortened 
And knowing deepened
You took over
The Perception of my senses 
And
The Focus of my attention  
You have become  
The energy behind my intelligence 
And 
The Window to my wisdom 
You have appeared  
In every form
and in every non form  
awake or asleep
I am gently cradled by the song
sung by the Moon
reminding me
I don’t exist
You don’t exist
The Lover
and the beloved
 
Exists as ONE
                                                                  AK
 

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