When I was in my 20’s, I use to wonder, how my life will unfold, 10 or 20 years from now. I had no idea about the ups and downs of life that was ahead of me then. After been through so much, I still feel there is a lot ahead of me yet to come, am I ready ? I don’t know, I guess no one is , but we are resilient beings and just keep going no matter what, like breathing, day after day after day, trying to stand up every morning from that bed, taking one step after another, splash of water on the face, looking into our own eyes in the mirror, staring and thinking who are you ? and what happened to me ? did I got lost somewhere along the way ……….
Strangers in Strange land
18 Mar 2023 Leave a comment
in Life, Sufi/Mystic Tags: Spirituality
I walk and I am tired
But I keep walking and won’t stop
All these unfamiliar roads
Strangers , unknown faces
Where am I ?
I don’t belong
I am trying and I will not give up
I hope and I believe
One day I will find
The Home
The way back to You
Till then
I walk and I ll keep walking
Tea Party
29 Aug 2022 1 Comment
in growth, letting go, Life, Love, Memories Tags: Faith
Preparing for the tea party, taking out the good china, that fragrant tea I ordered last week, pouring the hot water, taking the pastries out, finger sandwiches , decorating table, placing everything exactly where it belongs.
A guest will come, that unknown stranger, I know, my 6th sense tells me so
Waiting ………
Knock on the door , silence ….
Knock again …. but I am afraid to open the door
afraid to let someone come in , what if ? ? so many questions
afraid to open the door of my heart
afraid to have it broken
I can’t ….
but I want to
clock is ticking …. I peak outside
I see someone sitting on stairs, facing the other way
finally I open the door, that person turns around with a smile , get up, steps in
Close the door behind
Capturing my heartbeat
and
I let go handing over the key
Ak
Passing thoughts
13 Aug 2022 Leave a comment
Vision without eyes
Is it wind, or am I breathing
A lightening strikes the tree, why do you make me so angry ?
That song I wrote, listen bird is singing it
My heart suddenly filled with sadness, So many tears, its been raining since morning
Soon it will be time to sleep, I close my eyes and Sun sets
Darkness spread all around and I find myself in mothers womb floating
~ AK
My Love
05 Feb 2022 Leave a comment
in Love, Loving You, Memories Tags: Love, Memories
My love?
what can I tell you about my Love
Beloved’s beautiful smile brings peace to hearts, Just one loving glance makes the cherry blossoms dance with ecstasy, Soft whispers gathers Nightingales around, moon comes down to kiss her face, and stars look forward to cover her hair…
Aks
[Feb 2012]
Feb 5, 2012
05 Feb 2022 Leave a comment
in Love, Loving You, Memories Tags: Loving You, Memories, Thinking of you
They are the prisoners of my being
longing to come out for so long
they scream, they yell, they knock
for years, they have been trying
suffocating, crying, slowly dying
no one knows, their veiling
they are the words, and meaning
of that Love i have been hiding
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
but you will never know
as my words are locked in
behind bars in my heart
Ak
Vulnerable
03 Jan 2022 Leave a comment
in Love, Loving You Tags: Depression, Difficulties, Feelings, Love
I Love you in all forms
In all shades of time
Night or Day, Spring or Fall
But I love you more
When you are alone and in despair
Then your heart is fully open
And you are most vulnerable
In that moment I feel closest to you
Aks
Unforgettable encounter
30 Dec 2021 Leave a comment
in Beloved, Love, Loving You, Memories Tags: Love, Loving You, Memories
The sweetness
The softness
Like the red rose petals
Tender, gentle, velvety
The touch
Oh the fragrance
The warmth of your breath
Awakens the memory
Of you and me
Together
For eons of time
Holding hands
Travelling
Always in Love
I know your scent
I can recognize you
In every time period
No matter in what shape and size
No matter in what role
You and Me
Two beats in ONE heart
Madness
01 Nov 2021 Leave a comment
in Difficulties, Life, Pain, Sufi/Mystic
I felt secure and safe within me
Roaming room to room
I got lost
Entered so deep within
Cant find my way out
Now its just me within myself
There is no one else
Sitting next to oil lamp in my heart
I talk , I listen , I reply
aks
Desire
23 Sep 2021 1 Comment
in Life, light, Your Thoughts Tags: action, Desire, Mind
What is planning ?
It’s visualizing in mind what we want . Every action start with vision, it’s the first and most important step to action. We see it, we plan it , we act on it, and its done .
The reward is the end product .
What is desire ?
Its the colors which paints the vision . Without desire, vision is just black and white, and don’t have much impact .
Wild Flowers 